Winding Road

I realize that I cannot live alone.

I have seeked myself for a few months. When I started to try to seek myself, I felt that I didnt have any talent and strong points from me. First of all, my dad wants to put me onto his root. However, I did not think it was what I wanted. I could not explain WHY.

I applied at least 20 companies, but I did not pass it at all. Because I still do not know what I want to. While I am in Tokyo, I have some friends, but I cannot stay with them. My friends told me that I need to tell a lie to interviewers if I really want to work there. However, I have wondered if I work there, what can I get? I have lost my motivation of job hunting.

Most of interviewers told me that I do not seem to do business. I do not seem to have competition. one of companies asked me to go to Accounting department... Oh well, I did not have good memory in the Accounting. so I showed off I DONT WANT by chance... They checked something on their note during Interview... Oops I did it!! orz I need to practice to make poker face.

Well, I cannot find people who have same situation like mine. I feel alone. I complain to some friends. thats why I cannot be independent. I think it is time to solve this problem myself. I have been nervous so I use facebook pics when I dont feel good. those pics make me happy. Everyone steps up by themselves. I am so proud of all my friends!!

I am listening this song everyday.

Check this one.

http://jp.youtube.com/watch?v=G8fFCF0o8pc

I already ask friend to get this song.
Somehow it takes so long to get this song. lol

I think I always write same thing on my blog.
I miss friends, and I am so proud of my friends.
I just want to have strong mental.